Tonight at 3:00 am or so, I will be picking up Reid and we will be on our way to the first vacation we have ever just taken together. Am I apprehensive? No...he is the only person in my life that is grateful, happy with who and what life has come to mean for him, and is so excited. I am truly praying, God, that I treat him with respect and dignity and do not take the garbage in my life from MN with me. It is time to regroup-get priorities set and get all paperwork done to ensure continuance of benefits, salary, student loan, etc......So, for the next 14 hours it is time to buckle up, stop procrastinating, do the damn homework, (I am so disappointed with this decision-should not have let Tom B talk me into changing my major---dumb, dumb, dumb!) figure out how to get it onto course site, pack, take care of Myssi's insane financial problems, leave Rob and Huey at home-I am good enough to fck and take money from but not good enough to even be mentioned to "his family". This will change-I cannot keep putting my needs aside and bankroll everyone else.....it is not getting me anywhere but a sure trip to wrinkle remover and hair dye aisle..... So,
Get MOVING-GET THE HOMEWORK DONE - LET'S SAY BY 3PM-FIND SOME ADDERRALL , PUMP IT UP FOR THE BEST TIME EVER WITH MY NUMBER ONE SON!
i AM GOING TO HAVE FUN-THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN USING ME ARE JUST GOING TO HAVE TO DO WITHOUT BECAUSE i AM TAKING WHAT IS MINE! i CAN'T WAIT TO BE WITH SOMEONE WHO IS APPRECIATIVE AND HAPPY!
